Baby C update

Well I am STILL prego!!!!

The pregnancy is my excuse for being a little MIA in recent days from blog-land. Not that I am tired, but seriously stressed. I can't quite seem to get my thoughts in order, even enough to get them typed out. I don't even know that I can now, so this may be just a bunch of non-sense rambling (more so to myself than to any reader).

Let me first just say that there are NO more pictures. The sight of me is just darn SCARY!! My face is as round and fat as a beach ball. But I guess it balances out my double beach ball butt. The next 9 months of loosing all this weight, plus the left overs from Colton that I never lost, ought to be real fun! Yeah for me!

OK, so my stresses....where to begin. The last week and a half has been all about getting ready. I have washed car seat covers, swing covers, carriers, blankets, and what-not. I have mostly got everything put back together. Some of that crap is tricky and it has been almost 2 years since I have used it. All of this is a slow process because after a load or two, or half a project, I am tired. Or I have to go break up a fight or listen to a whiny kid, but that is a whole other stress issue!

This week I am stressing about my parents coming. Is everything clean enough? Did I wash the guest room sheets yet? Plus I have dogs and they don't and I know that grosses them out. My mom keeps a much cleaner house than I do. I have quite the "daddy do" list going, which I always feel guilty about because Pops needs a break. But lets face it, my honey can't really "do" that much on my list. I scheduled the exterminator, but did not get the carpets cleaned. I had every intention of getting a plumber here this week, but failed there too. I am going to be tired and moody, so I hope I can be nice. I get cabin fever easily, and will being in the house for almost 2 weeks straight is sure to add to my moodiness.

Today I am stressing about finishing everything. I woke up in a cleaning mood, but the boys did not. Connor has a bit of a snotty nose so I can't take them to daycare. I gave them a new toy this morning which entertained them long enough for me to get dressed and change my bedding. When they were bored with that, the box kept them busy so i could vacuum my room. Mark is out of town for the rest of the week, so I won't get much done at night. He has been great about coming home and doing bedtime so that I can either do a small project or rest (OK so it's mostly rest because I am very tired by 7pm). I have to work on Saturday and maybe on Sunday. If not, I need him to get the Christmas stuff out of the attic and help me put that up. I have to make a big grocery store visit to stock up. Monday the boys have a Thanksgiving program at school, so that will take up the most of the day. Mark has to miss it to go to Oklahoma for a meeting. Then Tuesday I want to do something special with the boys. Mark will be off that day so we can have some good family time before all the last minute packing and cleaning. Somewhere in there I want to get 1 last pedicure!!

I just got off the phone with the folks from anesthesia at the hospital. They told me I was having a block (slightly different from an epidural) and it gets put in your back once you get into the OR versus in your pre-op room. That sounds very intimidating to me!! So, now add surgery panic to my list of stresses. I have tried not to think about that too much. I seriously almost cried on the phone with the nurse. I hate hospitals and tend to freak out in the operating room. I have a hard time breathing laying flat on my back and add being strapped to a table to that....freaky! Plus being awake, even numb, while they cut you open plays some nasty tricks on your mind. Mark does not get that. It has been the cause of fights, twice now, because he believes I am out of it. So I am not looking forward to argument number 3 when he won't talk Hollywood gossip with me while the doctor's do their thing so that my mind is preoccupied with mindless BS instead of what is happening behind the curtain!

OK, so enough of my complaining. The boys are almost done eating lunch so once I get them down for naps, I MUST MUST MUST clean my floors. They are some kind of nasty!!!! I do have lots to blog about, so I will try and catch up soon.

Baby C Update

Well, I am still pregnant, as big as a freaking whale, and tired as all get out!!

Other than that, everything is right on track and seems to be great. Next Wednesday is my last 2 week appointment, then I start going every week. My official delivery date is 4 weeks from tomorrow. His heartbeat is strong. He is movin' and shakin' in there!

I have definitely come to the conclusion that God has a sense of humor. HAHA, lets make it take 40 weeks to grow a baby! I am OVER it! I am so ready to not be pregnant anymore. But I don't think I am ready for the next phase-staying up all night and balancing life with 3 kiddos. I am really not doing a very good job with 2 these days.

We have gotten everything out of the attic. I just need to get it all washed up. Clothes are ready to go. I am finalizing my list of things needed, all though it is short. Everything else that has to be done, I am leaving for mom (sorry mom-hope you didn't think you were getting a break)! The biggest thing left to do is meet him and name him. That part may cause a divorce. The naming, not the meeting. We are nowhere near an agreement or even compromise. In fact, if we talk about it, we usually end up not speaking!

I am a procrastinator by nature, so I am finally getting busy with my projects. I have cleaned out cabinets and closets.I have been trying to complete my Christmas shopping. I am making lists of lots of stuff that I need to help organize my house. It's like I am expecting guests. I cannot bring another person into this life, this house, and not be in control. I feel like I have not had it together since I moved in here. And that is probably because I moved in when I was 9 months pregnant with Colton. Plus I am feeling like I need to get my Christmas decorations up before I deliver, otherwise it will either go up to late or Mark will have to do it (and that would just not be good!).

Truth is, I am really starting to freak out!!! My daily thoughts consist of-what was I thinking, what have I done, how am I going to handle this, I am already screwing up 2 boys so how can I do it to a third? Then those thoughts keep me up at night, which makes me tired, which makes me less patient with Connor and Colton, which makes the vicious thoughts even worse! Not to mention all the worries that are really kicking in about Baby C being healthy and safe.

WOW!! That was a vent!!

Baby Names

I get asked all the time if I have a baby name picked out. The truth is I do, but I don't.

We have Connor Louis (Louis after Mark's grandfather) and Colton Lee (Lee after my dad). The middle names were a compromise we made before Connor was born. So it seems we have already started the "CLL" initials. My goal is to continue with the chees-y factor. Plus anything monogrammed can just get passed down. I am not thinking too hard about names because both boys were named after birth. I do like to meet them to be sure the name fits.

We were pretty set on Parker or Preston for Connor. And Colton had a list of our top faves and Colton was not on the list. All though we fought over it, I was not a fan of Colton. Of course now I could not imagine it any other way.

Mark really likes Christopher William for this one. I like the name, but it is very traditional and Connor and Colton are not. So I will argue that one. William was his dad's name, so while I respect that, it messes up our same initial game. I have offered Liam as a middle name, which is Irish for William. He is not sold on that.

I do have 2 favorites myself, which I am not sharing. It's not that I don't want anyone to know. I just know my husband. And the second I say them he will shoot them down. So I am keeping those to myself for just a bit longer. Though I do secretly talk to baby C and refer to him in a special C (non-Christopher) name!!

But I am willing to hear (read) any and all suggestions for a C and L names!!!!

Baby C Update

Well I am still pregnant!!!

Officially 10 weeks to go, unofficially 8 weeks.

I say 8 weeks because, hopefully, everything is being scheduled for the day before Thanksgiving, Wednesday, November 25! I have not heard back from the nurse, so at this point I assume it is all a go. It could still be pushed out until the Monday after Turkey day, which would be ok too. It's just when it gets that close, it is the sooner the better. Plus if it is before Thanksgiving, I will have more people who can help with the boys since I would be in the hospital over a long, holiday weekend. If it is after, then family will have to take off work to help. My mom will come, but I would rather her be here when I am home from the hospital to help me.

My doctor's appointment went well. It would have been a rare visit that I was going to be in and out in less than 30 minutes, but I had to lay on the monitors for about half an hour. I was telling my DR that he had suddenly gotten much less active in the previous week. So she put the straps around my big belly to monitor his heart and movement. She said he looked great, perfectly normal for his age. I felt much better just hearing that. And of course, by that afternoon he was back to normal...the little rolly polly! Maybe I just worked myself up about it or was concentrating so hard on his movements that I could no longer feel them.

I start going back now every 2 weeks. There is light at the end of the tunnel. It's all fun and exciting in the beginning, but now....I'm kind of over it. I am not ready for his arrival, still SO much to do. But I can hardly do it because I am tired and have no energy. I have a sneaky little feeling that it is the procrastinator in me taking over. I will probably be up for 4 nights before his arrival finishing all my closets and cabinets.

Just a funny side note:

Yesterday while Colton was napping, I went into my bathroom to "do" my toes (it's part of my saving money movement-less paid for pedicures).

Well, I can no longer reach them in any position!! Darn the luck, I had to go to China-town today for a pedi. (As tacky as it is, that is what I call the nail salon)

Crazy Thought

So I have had a seriously crazy thought!!!

With Connor I did go into labor 10 days early. My water broke in the middle of the night, and I just know it was from that raspberry tea I drank. But he was breech so I had to have a C-section. With Colton, I was given the option. I did not necessarily want to have the surgery, but he was due January 6th and I really wanted him in December. Mainly it was for insurance and tax purposes, and quite frankly 40 weeks is just too long!

Now with number 3, you don't have an option-it must be a repeat C-section. But since this is my last and there is no risk of going into the new year, I was thinking why schedule it? Why not let my body go into labor. There is just something about the unknown and the excitement about thinking "is this it". Now I know that when it gets down to it, I will be so ready to just get this baby out (the 40 weeks is too long thing)-and right now he scheduled 10 days early. I don't know if I could make those last few days.

When I told Mark about it, he thought it was one of my dumbest ideas yet! He is probably right, but that moment is so GREAT! I can't even choose the words to describe it.

I need opinions-schedule it the smart way or wait it out.

Baby C Update

The countdown is on with only 3 months left to go. Baby C is kicking like crazy, mostly at night of course! You can even see and feel it from the outside now, which I always love!

I am not usually one to complain because I figure any ache or pain is temporary. But I could bitch from here to Friday. I have been going along this whole time thinking this was my easiest pregnancy ever. Heck I could have a dozen more.

And now I feel like I have hit the wall. I not only hit the wall, I ran into at about 100 miles an hour! I am tired and can't sleep. I am having a really hard time breathing. I have to sit down after I walk up the stairs. My chest hurts at night trying to just breath so bad that it is affecting my sleep (that and the belly in the way and the peeing all affect my sleep). I did have my sugar test yesterday and they will also check my iron levels. My doctor suspects that my iron is low which is why I feel winded. She also suggested I not eat or drink for several hours before bed to help with the breathing. She said is probably reflux. So I tried it last night and it did help! I also slept most of the night because I did not have to pee as much. My chest still hurt this morning. I actually think I just might be getting sick because I have been coughing.

See I told you I could bitch for a week!

I am still working out though at least 4 days a week. My twice weekly turbo kick class is my favorite. But my kicks are quickly becoming taps. Another week or so and I will just be marching in place. On the plus side, I have a killer jab! I pity the fool who ever tries to mess with me...I bet I could give a serious black eye!

And then there are my sleeping angels.

I will just sit and stare and them at night, especially Colton. I think about how big he looks in his bed. Then mind always goes to weird thoughts...am I doing a bad thing by adding another baby into the mix so soon. It's definitely different feelings than when it was just Connor and I was pregnant with Colton. It was just bitter-sweet emotions then. I was thrilled to be having another baby, but so sad that it wasn't just going to be me and Connor anymore. I think this time it is a lot of guilt because Connor is at such a crucial learning age and Colton is so far behind in his speech. They both need so much. I know it will all work out.

Baby C Update

Yes I know there is no face in this picture, but it has been a very long, hard, HUMID day. My hair and face were not in picture taking form. But please notice the full on outie belly button. This usually does not happen for a couple of more months. I just told Mark the other day I was going to have to get this fixed next year. It never went back the same after Colton, and now it is already all the way out. It really disgusts me-YUCK! I sure hope this is fixable. How do you get insurance to cover fixing an outie?

Anyway, had my check up today....still pregnant! Everything is right on track, growing nicely ( in more ways than one). I am not going to share the magic weight gain number, but it ain't pretty. God help me come December.

I have to take the glucose test next visit, so I was sent home with that nasty drink. Let's all pray that it comes back normal because I am not sure I can give up my sweets. Well, that might not be so bad, could help with the weight management.

I scheduled the birth for the day before Thanksgiving. So baby C should make his arrival on November 25th around 8am (assuming there is an operating room available). I will let you know if I have to change the date.

I am still feeling great-best pregnancy yet. I am sticking to my workouts 5 days a week which I think has been the key. It is definitely keeping me from exploding in size (I am telling you I get BIG). The only flaw so far is I have officially hit the non sleeping point. I cannot get comfy. I am a side sleeper, so much so that I am practically on my stomach. Not anymore. So I toss and turn all night, which makes me have to pee more. The year of no sleep has begun!

Baby C update

IT'S A BOY!!!!

And he seems to be growing normally and right on schedule. Mark was very happy, his face just lit up. I am thrilled of course, but might have been a teeny-tiny bit disappointed (only from a fashion since). Now I know I don't have to paint and I won't go bankrupt buying clothes for the next 18 years--ha!! I feel like I finally have a connection with this little guy now, and the fun nesting stage can begin. There is so much to do and so little time left. I have begun making my lists and now I need to see how much money daddy Mark is going to let me spend (he'll probably give me $100). It's really the big brothers that need the most-bunk beds and a dresser and some closet organizers. We are going to let them share a room so that we can keep a guest room (for now anyway-I may end up regretting this decision, especially when it comes to sleeping). The little guy will need only a few clothes and a few hundred thousand diapers. I'm not sure how many of our current clothing items can make it for round 3. My kids are not the cleanest, and I am not Martha Stewart in the laundry room! Then there are all the closets and cabinets I need to clean out for the annual sweep through that I really must get done this year because next year might be tough. The list just keeps getting longer and longer, by the second it seems. I better go get started. Just kidding, not today-I am off to the Barn for work. Oh, I'll just leave the list with Mark!!!

Start sending in your C and L name suggestions

Baby C update

Well the bump is on in full force. I look like I am much further along than my mere 5 months. But they say with each baby you look pregnant much faster since everything is stretched out. I don't know if that is true or not, but I am choosing to believe it right now....it makes me feel better.

So I know I missed my update post last month, but not much has changed. I went to the doctor last week-still pregnant. The heartbeat was good and strong, although this month and last, it took the nurse several minutes to find it. That can be a little nerve racking, but once you hear it your own heart skips a beat. So I have gained about 11 pounds total, which is a lot considering I have the biggest months left to go, but good based on my last 2 pregnancies. I gained 72 pounds with Connor-can you say beached whale?! I gained 50-something with Colton. I never lost it all. I am continuing with my exercise classes Monday-Friday, which is getting to be a sight, especially my turbo kick class. That is the only thing saving me because I am surely eating for 2!

I have a sonogram the week after this one to check things out, and surely this baby will have a gender by then. I did a sonogram a few weeks ago (for down syndrome testing-which came back fine) and I still had a sexless baby. Most likely I will find out the sex. I love the thought of a surprise, but when I know I have one coming, I can't stand the suspense. I was definitely the kid who snooped around the house looking for the Christmas presents. Mark always wants to know too. Even if we do find out, we might keep it a secret, at least for a while. (I will keep you posted). All though my mom says she won't do any shopping if she doesn't' know what it is. I kind of have a feeling it is a girl. Not that my pregnancy is any different (actually this is the easiest one I have had). It's just a feeling. Then when it was genderless at my last sonogram, it made me really believe that it would be a girl. I, of course, just want a healthy baby. Mark really wants a boy. Truth be told, I think I kind of do as well. I know what to do with boys. Plus I have everything. I always think how cute the girls clothes (well everything) are, but lately as I have been eyeing girl clothes, bedding, etc, none of looks all so cute to me! We shall see!!!

Well, I will let you know in a couple of weeks what it is going to be (maybe)!

Baby C update

I am in my 12th week (and 9th pound), so I suppose next week I can start counting by months (which will make me feel alot better about how I look). I could certainly bitch from here to Tuesday about all the prego problems, but I won't bore you with bloating and tiredness. Instead I will focus on the good stuff. For starters, the nausea is almost gone. I just feel icky on the occasion now instead of all day. I haven't had a nap in a week so maybe the 2nd trimester will be one of energy for me-let's hope anyway. I officially cannot button my pants anymore so I got my maternity clothes washed up the other day. I had to sort through and see what has survived numerous pregnancies (most of my clothes have been shared or are handy-me downs from my mommy friends). I have thought before each pregnancy that I will be the cutesy prego and love all 40 weeks of the miracle happening in my body-blah!blah!blah! Let's face it, I blow up like a whale, cry like a baby, waddle like a duck. But I am trying my hardest to enjoy it.

I will post growth pictures after my monthly doctor's appointment. I was going to take one now, but it is hard to take a self stomach picture. Connor tried, but that was just silly! So pictures to follow-watch me grow! But when I start getting too fat, I'll get embarrassed and stop. Then the boys and I will go into hiding.

My neighbor across the street called me this morning to tell me she was pregnant. But she is a size zero and won't show until the month before birth, but she's nice so I forgive her. She has 2 little girls almost the same age as Connor and Colton (I have posted on them before) and we have just recently gotten to know each other and have play dates. So I am excited that we can welcome new additions to our families around the same time.

Baby C

Baby C is on it's way to the Lenzer family and we couldn't be more delighted. Connor has already told us he wants a sister and he wants her to be red. Then he said she could just wear red. He also wants to name her Tow Mater, but we'll see about that. It doesn't exactly match our "CLL" initials that we have started.

Baby C is due December 6, exactly 23 months after Colton's due date. Maybe I can plan it right so they will be born exactly 23 months apart-might as well keep it simple right?

You know I will say that I don't care what it is, so long as it's healthy. Mark is quite sure he wants another boy. At least if it is a boy I won't have to buy anything! But on the other hand, all the girl stuff is so cute. One thing is for certain though, it is just one baby, that much I know!

I will keep each of you updated on news as we progress. We can't wait to meet Baby C!