So, I've Been Thinking

Crazy

I KNOW

Pondering life

my life

In all my spare time

But I have

non stop, it seems

I should get a hobby

Maybe it's because it's the end of the year

And you begin to reflect back over the past 12 months

and think ahead of what you would like to accomplish in the next 12

It has been a really wild year for me

I hate to use the word bad

Because I have it great compared to so many

But it has not been one of my best

Things have been really hard on my family

With a new job which required a move

So many details and feelings on all that situation

which I am not quite ready to share here

Many, many thoughts of guilt for having 3 children

Someone is always missing out 

Monster MOM is out way more than she needs to be

I have to wonder why

Even thoughts of who am I

I have no idea of my own style anymore

CRAZINESS

See...too many thoughts

I can't even get them together enough to post

So maybe I am not ready to talk about any of it

So now I am just trying to relax and focus on the Holidays

and 

The Boys

I can deal with all my crap later

RIGHT?

I heart Christmas

As a kid, of course, it's the best

You can hardly stand the anticipation of Christmas morning

Coming around the corner or down the stairs

Seeing all that the big guy has left under the tree

But as a MOM

I am even more excited

I cannot wait to see my kiddos faces